Hello and welcome to my blog.

Long story short, I’ve worked as a police officer in Melbourne since I was 20. I was in my 18th year of operational duties when I was diagnosed with post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) and depression.

PTSD is one of many occupational hazards faced by police and other emergency service workers – but so too is the associated stigma. Unfortunately, that old “suck it up” attitude still exists, which can make it hard for those affected to seek help. This is something that needs to be turned on its head.

When I was first diagnosed, I wanted to read as much as I could about PTSD, but most of the stuff that was out there was clinical and/or military-based. I couldn’t really find anything biographical. I think it would’ve helped me to know that a lot of what I was going through wasn’t so abnormal.

I’ve never been a big talker and it was hard for me to discuss certain topics with my psychologist. So I started writing it all down. Then I thought writing could be a good way to communicate with my family members (who are still pretty much unaware of my diagnosis), and anyone who is considering seeking help for mental health problems.

This blog features a collection of those pieces written for my psychologist – most are in their original form.

I’m not here to give advice, I wouldn’t know how. But what I will say is this; if you are struggling, please seek help.

What I hope to do is share my experiences – the things that helped and the things that didn’t – and to generate some more chat about mental health. I’m also hoping to get some other contributors on board to give their perspectives too.

And that’s the story of how my blog came to be. If you have any questions or comments, drop me a line on the contact page. I’d love to hear from you.

Thanks for stopping by,

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